A Life In Motion

Everything just seems to be moving in every direction lately.  I’d be hard pressed to find a close friend that hasn’t had something life altering happening in their lives this year.  Some good, some bad, and some depends on the perspective.

I have lived in South Bend for about 14 years now.  In those 14 years, I have had 3 jobs (4 if you include Barnes & Noble, but that was just for a social life), 3 homes and countless friends.  There is one friend that has been there since day 1. She is and has been my closest friend for at least 13 of those 14 years.  For the last 7 or 8 years, we have had an amazing group of friends of which she & her husband are truly the nucleus.

We all started out single.  All but one of us are married (or engaged).  Ironically, it’s one of the most outgoing of us too…me.  It seems that South Bend hasn’t been the place for me to find my soul mate.  As it stands, there is really only one other friend who could potentially get married, but they haven’t set a date.  It is just me.  I did sorta date one guy a few years back, but realized that when it came to the kisses, that never happened.  Then one day, he declared his love…to a man named Josh.  Although he pronounced it “Yosh” since he had an accent.  The other sorta situation was with someone I had known for years and that was just all sorts of dysfunctional, “You misunderstood what I meant when I said I was falling in love with you, I meant as a friend all over again.”  Yeah…sure…

My company, which I love, has been encouraging us to work from home.  It really didn’t appeal to me since I live alone and am single.  But, all of my team are now working from home…I decided that if I can work from home, I would rather be in a place that has more to offer.  I had always loved Indianapolis and left under horrible circumstances.  I had tried to get back there when I was looking for all of the jobs that I have had in South Bend.  It’s not that the city has been bad to me.  Again, I have amazing friends, but they all have families that they have started and here I sit alone at home typing a blog.

It was a tough decision.  Not only do I love my friends, but my house is quite fabulous too.  It’s nothing fancy, but it has everything I wanted, except a dishwasher.  But, it is just a house; the home I get to take with me.

Right after I declared my intention to move, my dear friend of 14 years told me that she was expecting her 1st child.  My heart sank.  Now? Really?  It has complicated the decision, but I know she wouldn’t expect or want me to stay for her if it is what I feel that I need to do. 

Once I mentioned it to my neighbor, her friend’s kid came to my door and asked to buy my house.  For real.  I agreed to the price.  And almost a  month later, I haven’t heard a word from them.  This is frustrating because I found a house that I fell in love with in Indy.  So, I have contacted a realtor and have asked them to put my house on the market, a few months before I had intended.  But, I don’t want to miss out on that house now.

I am not sure what the future holds or how much longer I will be able to look out the beautiful picture bay window while sitting by the fire in my navy living room.  And, I don’t know what adventures Indy may hold for me.  And I wonder how soon I will find out…